I feel like my life is falling apart and i feel helpless?

Probably the most important thing you can live for is YOU. Everybody goes through really sucky, crappy times at some point in their lives, just like you are going through right now, where it seems that nothing EVER goes right. But the thing you have to keep in mind and keep telling yourself is that eventually things have to get better. Maybe not today, or tomorrow, but sometimes when you've hit bottom the only place left to go is up. I'm 30 and I went through a horrible period in my life a couple years ago, my husband wanted a divorce and I didn't, we had to file bankruptcy, and we lost our house as a result. I even had to give up my two dogs because of all of it. But I kept my head high because I just kept reminding myself that eventually something has to go right, even if by accident! Your life is going to be what you make of it. Being happy is a choice and it's a lot better life if you choose for yourself to stay positive. Good things will come to you in time.